yea me :)

it's hard to read, but I received a Girl Scout Award from our service
unit tonight. It is the Valued Volunteer Award *beam*

overwhelm? anxious?

I don't know how to explain it (and we'll just pass over the elephant in the room - you know, the one where people wonder why i haven't been updating this with any kind of regularity), but every once in a while, I just feel anxious and overwhelmed. Like I'm forgetting something of vital importance.

Part of this could be that I'm meeting with the principal today. Part of it could be that I'm frustrated with some girl scout stuff having to do with my troop. I also have financials due soon and i'd give my right arm for a treasurer. I don't enjoy using other people's money and making sure that I know where it all goes/went and being accountable for it.

The school stuff is frustrating. Irene and Rhys have been retracked. I didn't want them retracked. I was happy knowing our schedule. It's now changed. The only good part of it is that Rhys might have Irene's first grade teacher. That's really all that will make it okay. I need to think of what to say to the principal. I feel like I help the school quite a bit in the ways I am able. I volunteer in the classrooms, I can sub almost always at a moment's notice (since both kids go there, it's easier than when I have to go to a different school), I volunteer for PTO things, I do my best to be supportive of the teachers. And, because I don't LIKE being the squeaky wheel, I feel like my kids got ewed-scray.

I'm trying to keep it together and just don't like this fast heartbeat slightly queasy feeling.